In the midst of silence,
Tightly squeezed and lost in making sense
Everything lost in dazes and phases,
Of wh was and what wasn't,
The trauma of where's, why's clogged in.
Walls of lies and defense built up so quick like the wall of Jericho only this time its not the walls to protect but destruction inbound.
See,
Tears were meant for "the weak people"- Why are you nodding No? You believed it too. You lived it to prove a point, I know i did.
In the phases, dazes, survival of all that life is throwing at you, tears are still a No No... you can't afford to be weak.
STRENGTH the loudest lie i ever heard! It taunts, haunts, cripples worse than the pain.
Look keenly Honey,
You hold pain, disappointment, agony, hurt in, you loose you yourself in all of it and you then you hurt every good thing that comes your way! STRENGTH the slowly becomes poison
Dying silently yet too quickly
Is it your fault? YesNot
"People made me like this,circumstances, family blah blah blah...."
You Killed you or should i say You are Killing you? - Too Harsh? I hope yes
Not so long ago, You BELIEVED.
You Believed in a future,
Believed In Love,
Believed you will defy odds, be the best in the world with motivational sticky notes all over your mirrors
Everything was working so well until being "strong" showed up
Now we are at cross roads;
Clattered walls,
Broken dreams,
Dark rooms,
Depressing songs,
Too many thoughts, extra feelings
Broken Heart, Regrets and a Death Note at the back of your mind.
Your head is now pitch black, everything cuts like a knife passed through burning coal but the funny bit is, its all too familiar now - it feels right!
Bottled pain, is now already caught up
PHASES, MEMORIES, SILENCE...
Does that remind you of anything? No? Okay lets try it this way
SILENCE, MEMORIES, TEARS
Relatable?
If you listen keenly, you will hear silent tears
Now, Lets talk
TEARS,
This is for you who thinks you have nothing to hope for anymore! Pain and pretense is all you know...
Just like they told you, Smile, i will tell you Cry.
Take off the mask they told you to wear - Break Down, and have the best cry of your life. WEEP LOUD
Tears are powerful, hear it from someone who never cried half their life in the name of "i garra be strong" WHY? For show
The strongest people are not the ones that bottle up emotions as a coping mechanism. why do you need to prove a point to a society that is based on social pressure? I mean, think about it, why are you hurting? Because you are living for the red carpet, once the cameras go off - you have no idea who's reflection you are looking at. You have stacks of pain from your childhood to date, that is not only destroying you but the people you try to love and viceversa.
Undo the racks, Keep it real with yourself, Throw every expectation out the window, be you for a while - you might like that person better.
Once upon a time i was so hurt it made my back ache literally! I walked to the mirror, stared at the reflection, hated it and for the first time i let tears flow. I watched myself cry like i was a toddler. After 40 minutes of weeping about everything, i started laughing, - the pain i had was not there anymore.
Sometimes, Tears hold the keys to being free!
ANOTHER THING,
"I am hurt, oh they did this to me, i never have anyone, no one understads me ..." Get over yourself!! How long are you going to be in the victim bus? Another 30 years? Chile, you are like an FBI agent only difference is you are dressed in a dark gown with cobwebs as the decor. Your mouth has become like that of a 70 year old granny who is always complaining about everyone.
That VICTIM Attitude is stinky and it will be the reason, you go nowhere.
To my Future Children:
STRENGTH is knowing who you are!
TEARS are wisdom!
SOCIETY is a lie, ignore it!